The Meaning of Doves

So tonight is a night filled with saddness and lost memories.  As I'm sitting in the living room I hear something fall and Elijah say something like 'oh my gosh.' I run in there thinking Audrey did something.  Turns out my beautiful dove/egg music box is in tons of pieces on the floor. I know it wasn't anyones fault that it broke...but my heart broke with it.  This little thing has meant so much to me.  It was a beautiful egg with little jewels and inside were two doves sitting on flowers.  It played the song 'Love Makes the World Go Round.' I received this as a gift nearly 10 years ago from my aunt.  It was a gift in memory of my mom.    This is why I'm sad.  The doves have always been a representation of my mom and when we made Audrey's nursery I thought it would be a great accessory.  My mom could watch over my little lady and keep her safe.  I feel like the one big attachment that reminded me of my mom is gone.  In just a few months it will be a decade...God.  A decade since she has passed.  With that comes the lack of memory.  I no longer remember her voice, her laugh, or even the marks on her face. Her memory is fading and it kills me.  I always want to call her or have her here to help me and it's just not possible.  The breaking of the doves just solidifies that feeling.  It's hard to express the hurt or even an understanding from people unless they have lost a parent, suddenly, and at a younger age.  My heart is broken and I just want my memories back.