Left Out

Usually I am a pretty upbeat person and today I am not.  I'm feeling a bit down and it could just be in my head...or not.  I get like this sometimes.  I just get tired of making an effort or thinking you are better friends with someone than you really are and you just get let down.  I am tired of the excuses of why you can't do this or that with us or being sort of invited, but not really (if that makes sense) to something.  Like you want to go to hang out with people, but not sure if you were really invited by everyone or just 1 person.  I guess this is why, at times, that I had all the technology we have nowadays.  Messages get misread because they are sent via text, facebook, email...whatever.  Back in the day when didn't have all this, the only way to communicate was in person or by calling from a land line.  I'm even guilty of texting rather than calling because I don't want to interrupt someones day if they are busy.  I guess I may just read between the lines too much or am just overly sensitive today, but I just want some good, reliable people in my life.  I am not into the "sometimes" friends. Too old for it.  I'm also sad today because in 1 month I go back to work and have to leave Audrey at a babysitters again.  Hanging with my mommy friends doesn't always help because I am the only one that works and they get to keep hanging out and doing things and I get left behind.  Well, not really left behind, but out of obligation I can't partake.  Such is life.  July tends to be a shitay month for me anyways.  Hot, Mom's birthday, my birthday (NM family doesn't really care), summer coming to an end.  It all sucks. Well...enough of my negative banter. Maybe some ice cream will make me feel better. :o(